So... on Monday morning I thought I was having a heart attack. Yes, you read that right. I was laying in bed, minding my own business and BAMMM excruciating pain, shortness of breath, pain radiating up my neck and down my arm and around my back. I could hardly breath. It was scary to say the least. It lasted about four minutes and then it subsided. I was like, "what the heck was that"? My husband was very scared and I was trying to act like, "oh that is not big deal, I'm sure it was nothing?. HA! I was really scared. So, we called the doctor and went in. I know you are thinking... You are supposed to go to the hospital, but it was not hurting anymore. But on the way to the doctor it started again. So, we got there did an EKG and all the tests. It turns out that I have Pericarditis. Two weeks ago I had a mean virus...remember my post? Well, apparently, sometimes a virus will settle in and around your heart, cause inflammation and pain. Did you know that? Well I watch enough "HOUSE" to know it can happen. Now I'm on a strong anti-inflammatory for a few weeks to see if that does the job. I have some pain that comes and goes.
Now, not to be mellow dramatic, but when I was sitting on the couch waiting to go to the doctor, I thought, God, this seems silly. But if I am really having a heart issue, you must have a real good reason for it. So I began to pray and this was my prayer, "God, if you want me to be sick, OK, if you want me to be well, OK. I know you will use me in either case. Help me be used by you in all I do, whether in sickness or health. Help me use my life to bring others closer to You".
Now, I know what you are thinking, "that is a prayer we should pray everyday". You are correct, so, did you? Did you pray it today or yesterday? Are you willing to take whatever comes, in whatever form it takes and allow God to use you? It is tough to say those words and I hope in my heart I can continue to pray it today, tomorrow and for all the other days that God allows me to have a voice to pray.